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Darko's Life
mom February 1, 2012
 
Son

Someday...

I sit and hold your picture, As you looked so long ago.

I wonder, how would you look

Were you here with me today.

A higher power had you in their plans that day, You were lifted from my arms.

But still, as days go passing by, My eyes keep searching, everywhere.

My heart is still broken, As it was that other day

Though the years have passed and gone, I'll love you, each and every day.

If I was given one wish, I wouldn't think, not for a second.

I'd ask to see your face, my son, For just a single, fleeting minute.

You're locked up deep within my soul, and etched into my heart.

When the time is right, my son, I'll once more fold you into my arms.........

Someday....... 



What Darko Would Say

I know you have so much sorrow, But remember there is always tomorrow
That’s What Darko Would Say
Though I am gone, My spirit will always go on
That’s What Darko Would Say
When you are feeling blue, Remember I will always love you
That’s What Darko Would Say
I know you are sad, But think of all the fun we had
That’s What Darko Would Say
I will meet you when you dream, We are still an awesome team
That’s What Darko Would Say
Now I can watch over you all, Through the good and the bad times, I will help you stand up tall
That’s What Darko Would Say
Please remember this is not good-bye, I am just waiting for the day that together we will fly
That’s What Darko Would Say
One last thing I can not miss, Plane and simple so here it is…..
Please remember to wash your hands, This is where the nasty germs always lands
That’s What Darko Would Say
So hold on to my laughter, my smile, my eyes and my love, I will always be with you, just now it’s from up above
That’s What Darko Would Say

mom January 31, 2012
 
MY ANGEL
To Where You Are 
  
Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory's so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be (?)
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are my
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
 

Special Child

The world no longer listens...
to the sorrow in my soul
As if I should be better
Should live with some control

It's not a simple sorrow...
when you've lost your special child
There is no simple answer...
No living in denial

After months have passed on by...
The world thinks I am fine
As if I should be over it...
That I should be resigned

Inside I am still grieving
Alone I still do cry
Since they think I'm over it...
On me I do rely

I make it through each day...
but as night begins to fall
My heart reminds me often...
I'm not over it at all

So as I sit in silence
It's you I'm thinking of
While the world thinks I'm much better...
I am missing our sweet love
 
 

My Tears will end when I'm home with you in heaven
 

They think I'm fine and over it.

They think I'm fine and over it
Accepted that you died
But I live life with all this pain
And countless tears I've cried

I am forced to live with endless pain
That others can't accept
They think I'm fine and over it
Or that I'll soon forget

I want to scream from rooftops
Or silently just cry
I never will be over it
My God my child died!

It makes no sense to argue
My energy is low
So when they think I'm over it
I simply tell them No

I've become what they have wanted
A turtle in it's shell
Just keep my thought within myself
And never ever tell

I mask my life to others
To myself as well
For living every day on Earth
Is surely more like Hell

Simply put I won't get over it
Not better...stronger... fine
It is only that I've had no choice...
To live this life of mine
 
 

I'll never get over losing you
 
mom January 26, 2012
 
T E A R

Forgive me, Friend
If I don’t seem there—
If I seem a little distant
Or you think I don’t care.
My child has died

It’s hard to explain
My down-an-out days
When I don’t respond
Or I seem in a daze
My child has died.

I seem to be happy
When I suddenly cry—
The emotion overpowers me,
Hard as I try.
My child has died

So forgive me, My Friend,
When I can’t seem to give.
I’m doing all I can
Just to get up and live.
My child has died.

 
 

Hello, Old Friend,
Oh, yes, you know
I lost my child a while ago.
No, no please
Don’t look away
... And change the subject
It’s ok.
You see, at first I couldn’t feel,
It took so long, but now it’s real.
I hurt so much inside you see
I need to talk,
Come sit with me?
You see, I was numb for so very long,
And people said, “My, she is so strong.”
They did not know I couldn’t feel,
My broken heart made all unreal.
But then one day, as I awoke
I clutched my chest, began to choke,
Such a scream, such a wail,
Broke from me…
My child! My child!
The horror of reality.
But everyone has moved on, you see,
everyone except for me.
Now, when I need friends most of all,
Between us there now stands a wall.
My pain is more than they can bear,
When I mention my child,
I see their blank stare.
“But I thought you were over it,”
Their eyes seem to say,
No, no, I can’t listen to this, not today.
So I smile and pretend, and say, “Oh, I’m ok”.
But inside I am crying, as I turn away.
And so my old friend, I shall paint on a smile,
As I have from the start,
You never knowing all the while,
All I’ve just said to you is in my heart.

DARKO'S "MOM"

 

mom January 24, 2012
 
I MISS MY SON

The Grieving Mother


To those who say to get on with my life, I have.
It is a different life, the life of a grieving mother.
One with a tremendous amount to be thankful for,
but also one with a lot to mourn the loss of!
Do not judge the bereaved mother.
She comes in many forms.
She is breathing, but she is dying.
She may look young, but inside she has become ancient.
She smiles, but her heart sobs.
She walks, she talks, she cooks,
she cleans, she works, she IS,
but she IS NOT, all at once.
She is here, but part of her is elsewhere for eternity.
Do not dismiss us: we have shaped more than just the future generation.
We have released all the tiny angels who are watching over you.
Open your eyes to US, and you just might see THEM.

                                                                 My Son


No parent could be prouder,

Of the person you were growing into,

Just a very gentle, loving, young man,

With the world at his feet, and a sparkle in his eyes.

The sparkle left the day you did,

My precious one.

Living without you

leaves me totally speechless.

Missing you is a burden I carry every day,

It's wearing me down,

but there's no other way.

Missing you is something I will feel

Until we are together again,

I hope that, that day happens,

Can't bare to think that it won't

Love you So xxxx Mum

 

Our SonOur Son

When we think of you in silence
and often speak your name.
All that's left to answer
is your picture in a frame.
We close our eyes and try to remember
those words we hold so dear,
"I love you Mom and Dad"
Oh how we wish and long to hear.
Our hearts are full of sadness,
our eyes are full of tears,
As we think about the memories
that will have to hold us through the years.
We know you walk beside us
and when our life is through,
we pray that God will take our hand
and lead us straight to you.
So one day at a time
is the way we will abide.
Until once again
we will be walking side by side.
 

 

I will never know the man he was going to become.

I will never know how tall he would have grown.

I will never be able to celebrate his achievements, his triumphs.

I can never comfort him again, look after him, worry about him.

I  miss him so much.I will never forget him or stop loving him.

My little Darko Man!




You're happy in photos
I remember that smile
A flash of passion
Lives of sorrow
I miss you now
I'll miss you tomorrow
 
So loving and gentle
Every animal and bird
Bright interest all -
"what's that Mum?"
Its just tears now
I miss you really bad
 
I do not understand it
why did you go away?
I told you that I loved you
Each and every day
I prayed and prayed
and prayed and prayed
God keep you safe,
and well, and... unafraid
 
Life and home and work and play
Revolved all around you
Thinking of your various needs
and what we had to do.
 
You didn't know that did you?
Opportunities we let go
you were more important
we always just said no.
 
There seems no point to anything
But your brother
Desperately need my love
To say nothing of your dad
 
If they weren't here I'd want to come
to join you where you are
joy is absent and I want you so
for this life...now...forever... I simply have no care

 

MOM January 23, 2012
 
PLEASE........DON'T
 



PLEASE, don't ask me if I'm over it yet.... I'll never be over it. 
                                            

PLEASE, don't tell me he's in a better place. He isn't here with me. 
                           

PLEASE, don't say at least he isn't suffering. I haven't come to terms with why he had to suffer at all. 
                                                                                                               

PLEASE, don't tell me you know how I feel, unless you have lost a child. 
                    

PLEASE, don't ask me if I feel better. Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up.
 

PLEASE, don't tell me at least I had him for 20 years. What year would you choose for your child to die???  
                                                                                                           

PLEASE, don't tell me GOD never gives us more than we can bear.  
                 

PLEASE, just say you are sorry.
                                                                                    

PLEASE, just say you remember Darko, if you do.....
                                               

PLEASE, just let me talk about my son....
                                                          
PLEASE, mention Darko's name.   
                                                                                
PLEASE, just let me cry.......


 
                                                The pain will go away, with time"
                                                "It won't be so bad, after awhile"
                                                  So say these friends of mine...
                                                But they have never lost a child....

                                                 The pain will never go away
                                                   Yet it softens some, with time
                                                 My child is gone, it hurts to say 
                                                     I'll never be "just fine"

                                              The another year has come and gone
                                                  I hold your memories in my heart 
                                                  They dance there, as if to song
                                                   From that I know I'll never part

                                                 As time goes by year after year
                                                   And the pain begins to soften
                                                       I know that it's alright to tear
                                               And live with my memories, more often...
      

 
mom January 9, 2012
 
I Love You Son

                                                                                  I Love You Son

                                                                       My dear son! I miss you so much
                                                                      It keeps hurting, I can’t stop crying
                                                                 My eyes always search for you in the sky
                                                                  Heart longs for finding you in the heaven

                                                                        My dear son! I love you so much
                                                                           I feel so empty without you
                                                                    I am so scared of my future without you
                                                                Heart longs for being around you for my safety

                                                                            My dear son! You are my angel
                                                                       I still feel that you are caring me from above
                                                                    I tell my broken heart that you are still watching me
                                                                        Heart longs for your care even from heaven

                                                                            My dear son! You are my protector
                                                                              I remember you when I feel lonely
                                                                        I talk to you when I break into pieces
                                                                  Heart longs for your support even from heaven

                                                                    My dear son! I was thinking I gave you life
                                                                      The reality is that you had given me life
                                                                    Without you and your presence, I can’t exist
                                                              Heart longs for your company in my heart until I exist
                                                                                Please be there in my heart

                                                                                        I Love You Son!

 

I know that my son has passed away
But I will love him until my dying day.
So please listen to my memories every now and then
Family and friends, please allow me to talk about Darko



                                                                          All I Know Is...

All I know is.... I will always miss my Darko and long for him.
                All I know is.... one minute I'm together and the next I'm falling apart.
          All I know is.... my heart hurts all the time and it has never felt whole since the day he died.
       All I know is.... the tears won't stop filling up my eyes, soaking my pillows or staining my face.
            All I know is.... I "Really Really" miss him.
            All I know is.....it hurts ALL the time.
                   All I know is.....I want him back.
                                    All I know is.....sometimes I want him so badly, that I want to go to him.
                                All I know is.... there is no greater ache in this world than my child dying.
                                          All I know is.....I love him, even in death, I love him so much.

 

Bless us Lord
As we pray
You took our
Boy home today
Please let him know
Please as we pray
How much we
Loved him everyday
We loved his laugh
We loved his smile
We loved his everything
We loved our child

mom January 3, 2012
 
SPECIAL ANGEL IN HEAVEN


There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted him
but where God wanted him to be.

He was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven
he isn't very far.

He touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held him every minute
if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my special Angel
and send him all my love.
mom December 22, 2011
 
Love You
My Cry


                                                                         Hear my cry, O Lord.
                                                                   Let not my tears fall unseen.
                                                                     My soul is without life,
                                                                  And my life is without soul.
                                                                         Restore me, Lord;
                                                               Strengthen my steps before me.

My weeping has not been heard, and falls silently
On my breast, heaving and sobbing
Into the day and night.
Lord, lean into me with your strong embrace.
Do not let my cries go silently by.
I call to you as in days gone by,
Days before my time of sorrow. Lord,
You are my rock and my strong fortress.
In you I seek comfort and peace,
A balm for my aching heart and my still soul.
Lord, I weep for the dashed dreams and the hopes now gone,
For the lost friendship and the silenced laughs.
You alone, Lord, can restore me and strengthen me.
Lord, to you alone do I cast my cares, and in faith I trust,
In your eternal loving kindness

 

I'd Give Anything
I long for so much in this world
So many things, things untold
But right now I'd give anything,
I'd give up everything for just one thing
I'd give anything
- to see the love in your face
- to feel the warmth of your embrace
- to share a secret and a memory
...Just one more time
I'd give anything
- to have known you more
- to have opened for you one more door
But more than anything
I want to hear your voice and hear you laugh
Just one more time, that's all I ask.
Just one more time.

It's so comforting to know we'll meet again
But not comforting enough
It's so warming to know you're in a better place,
But not warming enough
Will the pain ever go away?
I wish it all would end.
But I never want to lose the memories.




I see you in the sunshine
I hear you in the rain
I feel you in the wind that blows
I long for you again,

So many hearts are broken
So many questions,"why"?
Only God knows all the answers
Of when or how we die,

At times you seem so far away
At times you seem so close
But we know your spirit is always here
When we need you the most.
With all my Love,
"Mom"
 
 
 
 
 
 
mom December 16, 2011
 
Darko's Journey’s Just Begun

 

Don't think of me as gone away-
my journey's just begun
life holds so many facets-
this earth is only one. . .
Just think of me as resting
from the sorrows and the tears
in a place of warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years.
Think how I must be wishing
that  we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.
And think of me as living
in the hearts of those I touched. . .
for nothing loved is ever lost-
And I was loved so much.

 In Loving Memory of Darko Durbic


 My Dearest Darko


At night when I fall asleep
he is all I dream of...
The one who's always had my heart,
my angel from above...
I want to hold him in my arms,
comfort him when he weeps...
Be there to tuck him in at night,
and then gently kiss him on the cheek...
I want to tell him sweet dreams
before he lays his head to rest...
Then whisper softly in his ear,
"to have you, I'm truly blessed"...
I want to be able to love him,
prove to him that he's my world...
Then I wake up crying tears
because I'm without my son...
My days without him hurt so bad,
I wish I had more memory...
And every day 'till we meet again,
I'll wish I had you here with me...

 

Angel in the Sky

 

When I look up at the sky
I see a pair of wings go by.
It's not a bird but an angel I see
through the clouds, he smiles at me.
And when I see the fiery black hair
I know then that Darko is there.
My arms long to hold him next to me.
But this is a dream that can never be.
He waves and continues on his way
so it is without him that I must face each day.
I can only remember him in my heart
with the love and memories, we're not apart.

 

I dreamt last night

 

I dreamt last night you held my hand,
but woke and you weren’t there,
and as the teardrops filled my eyes
your presence filled the air.

I tried again to reach for you,
but found you too far away,
so I began to cry again,
waiting for the day.

When I see you once again,
I know just what I’ll do,
I’ll gently grab you by the hand,
To make my dream come true.

mom December 12, 2011
 
To Our Darko

To Our Darko


How does a loving mother, explain
Heaven to her dying child?
Please give me the words, O Lord, and
let me say them with a smile...
There is a place called Heaven, Son,
beyond the skies above,
It is the place where GOD is watching,
His Heart so full of Love.
He watches all His children, Son,
He watches you and me,
He wants to know we love Him, and
hopes that we will be...
Always strong and healthy, always
kind and free!
But, sometimes, things do happen, Son,
and sickness takes a hold,
It might be something serious, it
might be just a cold.
GOD sends His special angels,
to watch over us and pray,
And, by our side they linger, they
are never far away.
They lift us up on angels' wings when
we are all too weak,
And, oh!, they pray so softly, Son,
with gentle whispers do they speak.
So, have no fear, my darling, should
GOD come to take you Home,
For it is up there in that Heaven,
Son, where you will run and laugh
and roam!
You will hear that angel choir rejoice
in praises to the LORD,
And, my darling precious child, you
never will be sick, again...
No, never, anymore!!
But, most of all, you will meet the
King, our Saviour, your Best Friend,
oh my!,
If I could see him take your hand, I
know that I would cry!!
You have fought so long, you gave your
all..GOD says it's time to rest,
We will always love and miss you, Darko,
but GOD...He knows what's best!


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