All I Know Is...

All I know is.... I will always miss my Darko and long for him.
All I know is.... one minute I'm together and the next I'm falling apart.
All I know is.... my heart hurts all the time and it has never felt whole since the day he died.
All I know is.... the tears won't stop filling up my eyes, soaking my pillows or staining my face.
All I know is.... I "Really Really" miss him.
All I know is.....it hurts ALL the time.
All I know is.....I want him back.
All I know is.....sometimes I want him so badly, that I want to go to him.
All I know is.... there is no greater ache in this world than my child dying.
All I know is.....I love him, even in death, I love him so much.

Darko, like many who die so young, was a special young man. If anything can come out of the tragic death of those so young, I thank God for the little bit of time we got to share with the magic person that he truly was! Darko, you are our "Special Angel" and we miss you so much!

My precious son, you changed my life forever when you were born. Then God changed it forever when He took you too soon. I miss and love you so much my Darko.

When I hear this song by Casting Crowns...I smile...because I know someday this mystery will no longer matter and Darko and I will be together again...I miss him more than I know how to express with words...but my heart knows...

From where I'm standing
Lord, it's so hard for me to see
Where this is going
And where You're leading me 

I wish I knew how
All my fears and all my questions
Are going to play out
In a world I can't control

 When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
'Cause You're already there
You're already there

Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there

 
From where You're standing
Lord, You see a grand design
That You imagined
When You breathed me into life

 And all the chaos
Comes together in Your hands
Like a masterpiece
Of Your picture perfect plan

 
When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory

 One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
I can't wait to enjoy the view
And see how all the pieces fit

 One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
'Cause You're already there
You're already there 

When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
'Cause You're already there
You're already there

 Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there

Our Darko........you will always be in our hearts, I thank God for the gift of YOU! I won't try to understand why......I can only look forward to the time we get to be together again, forever!! We miss you so much, it hurts!!

"You came into our lives, grabbed pieces of our hearts, and left with them still clutched in your hands." We love and miss you so very much........

Having a Son in Heaven changes everything; I will always miss my child. Love you Darko… 

You were here for a moment in time. In my heart though is where you will always be. They say with time you heal, but I know the truth. My heart has a hole without you here... Love you Baby!

Darko my precious son you were taken from us far too soon. Although many things have changed one thing will always be the same, a day does not go by that I don’t think of you, and my love still grows. You had the most wonderful smile and caring nature, it was if you were touched by God and he just wanted you back home with him. I will always be proud to have been your mother.

    


Sometimes it feels like a lifetime since you were here but then it feels just like yesterday. Today is 5 years since you were diagnosed with cancer. We miss and love you as much as ever. Coming home from our holiday the house felt so strange and empty. I still find it hard not seeing your things around and not hearing you playing music or chatting on the phone. At Friday I miss the clunk of your handbag as you threw it inside the front door for me to wash. I know that you are with us and keep us strong. I can't help thinking what your life would have been and its sad that you never got the chance to do all the things you had planned. You were loved by so many people and had a positive affect on everyone who knew you. You made us very proud. Keep smiling beautiful. You will never be forgotten and will be in our hearts forever.
All our love handsome.
Mom and Dad
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You are not forgotten, loved one, nor will you ever be. As long as life and memory last, we will remember thee. We miss you now, our hearts are sore, as time goes by we will miss you more. Your loving smile, your gentle face, no one can fill your vacant place. Love your family. Happy Easter Darko.......

I am thanking God which give me a privilege to be Darko’s mom and to watch him growing in to wanderfool young man.

As day’s, month’s, year’s  pass on I am realizing more and more how special he was, and I am going to remember him and his kindness all the time.

We laughed at him because he was different.

He laughed at us because we were all the same.

We will never laugh the same again.

                         Love mom