mom | Love You | October 31, 2013 |
mom | My darkest hour | October 22, 2013 |
mom | Happy Thanksgiving Day | October 14, 2013 |
mom | *** | October 10, 2013 |
mom | **** | October 4, 2013 |
mom | ****** | September 25, 2013 |
Hi Darko,
Mama is posting this picture and I wont to let you know that this little one make our life a little easier. Our precious granddaughter turning two tomorrow and mama know that you will be around her and on your special way you will wish her Happy Birthday. Milla knows who you are and I tell her that she has the best uncle always watching over her above. Miss and love you more than words can express …..
mom | ***** | September 12, 2013 |
Before you were conceived I wanted you
Before you were born I loved you
Before you were here in minute I would die for you
The moment you left this earth I begged to go with you
A life so full of beauty
A life so full of hope
Taken from my arms
Now nothing left to hold
In my heart there is a hole
Impossible to fill
Still looking for the answers
And needing all your will
Taken to a place
Too far for me to travel
I would gladly walk a million miles
Barefoot upon the ground
Just to see your face again
Just to feel your hand
Just to know your okay
And to try to understand
The reasons why, I may never know
A lesson today in letting go
I'll take with me the memories
Of a life that was so bright
I will look into the heavens
And see your shinning light
Knowing that someday
We will be together again
Taking your love with me
mom | My Angel up in Heaven | September 3, 2013 |
mom | *** | August 30, 2013 |
mom | I love you Darko always | August 27, 2013 |
As the five year anniversary of Darko’s death pass I've done a lot of soul searching. It's such a rollercoaster every single day and it takes every ounce of energy just to breathe in and out. Have I gotten better? Have I changed? Did I overcome? No to all of those because it is a constant battle. Losing Darko is something I will never get over and I will always be sadder than I can even express. Cut off your limbs and you will miss them forever, yes you are still alive and can still function but...something's missing right? I will probably always go through high times and low times, more low but I'll have to mask that. That's the way it is.
I have learned something from this. I'm not afraid. I'm not afraid to die and I'm not afraid to live. I'm here on earth hoping that I'm making a difference. I've made some life long friends and I've let go of some family and friends as well. That's the way it is. Everything changes. Believing in myself, trusting my instincts again, are things that I have really struggled with but once in awhile I take a step back and look at this life. I am still here and I am slowly moving forward, in a different direction then where I was going before, but I haven't stopped being the three things that are really important to me...a wife, a mother and a grandmother. I have mourned, screamed, cried, laughed, and grown in these past 5 years. I have had experiences and met people that I never would have if Darko hadn't died. Yes, I would trade those experiences and people in a heart beat if it meant one more hour with Darko. I want an hour with you, Darko, I love you Darko always mom.