Darko Durbic

I would be lying if I wrote that I didn't want him here with all of us for Christmas...but that is so selfish and worldly of me. My precious son is healed and all the suffering is gone. That's what I think about when I am sooo sad and missing him. Someday I will see the face of Jesus and I believe the next face I see will be my Darko. I can almost hear him say, "MOM do you see why now?
So, to all my mom friends who have children that are now in Heaven...we will make it there someday, and until then we will Praise Jesus everyday for choosing us to be the mothers of his precious children. Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday Jesus. 
 Miss you Darko,  love mom

This is not at all how

We thought it was supposed to be

We had so many plans for you

We had so many dreams

And now you're gone away

And left us with the memories of your smile

And nothing we can say

And nothing we can do

Can take away the pain

The pain of losing you, but…



We can cry with hope

We can say goodbye with hope

'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh, no

And we can grieve with hope

'Cause we believe with hope

There's a place where we'll see your face again

We'll see your face again



And never have I known

Anything so hard to understand

And never have I questioned more

The wisdom of God's plan

But through the cloud of tears

I see the Father's smile and say well done

And I imagine you

Where you wanted most to be

Seeing all your dreams come true

'Cause now you're home

And now you're free, and…



We have this hope as an anchor

'Cause we believe that everything

God promised us is true, so…



So we can cry with hope

And say goodbye with hope

We wait with hope

And ache with hope

We hope with hope 

We let go with hope

 

 

My Son Lives in Paradise

 

The dust has settled on the things

That I have stored away

A favorite toy, for little boy

A jar of dried out clay.

 

A photograph when you were young

Sits quietly on the shelf

Thoughts of you come drifting back

I just can't help myself.

 

A drawing that you made for me

When you were very small

Is framed within this heart of mine

And hangs upon the wall.

 

 A scrapbook lies within the room

Where you once laid your head

Your favorite book, a model car

The pillow on your bed.

 

I miss you coming home from school

"Hey mom, "it's me, I'm home"

I miss the little words and hugs

The special times we've know.

 

A part of me just disappeared

The day you went away

An empty space now fills my heart

There are no words to say.

 

A closet filled with memories

Of happy days gone by

A baseball cap and souvenir

Why did you have to die?

 

The trophies that you won at school

Stand proudly on display

Your many friends can't understand

Why God called you away.

 

I hear your voice within the halls

It echoes in the night

I see you in the evening mist

And in the morning light.

 

So many things you left behind

Are now a memory

But little arms that held me tight

Will always stay with me.

 

An empty space now fills my heart

My boy, my child, my son

You've gone into another world

Where golden dreams are spun.

 

I do not know the answers

It's not for me to know

But I will know the truth one day

Just why you had to go.

 

My turn will come to leave this world

I'll gaze into your eyes

God's perfect plan will be revealed

Up there in paradise

Author/Written by

Marilyn Ferguson

 by Cynthia Taylor                                                                                               The time has come for me to release you
                                                                 Free to fly high above this world.
                                                             Where the flowers forever bloom& 
                                                              The ultimate love fills the space.
 
                                                            In my attempt to try to keep you
                                                        I've only been able to hold the anger
                                                         Not realizing that I have to let you go
                                                                      I can't hold on.

I'll no more keep your pain alive,
I won't try to hold you down.
I'll let you fly on to higher ground.

My grief has left a numbness,
as if this isn't real
You are in my heart forever,
but I know I have to let you free.

Soar high.
Laugh as a child that feels the joy of the moment. 
 
Play among the rivers flowing through the hills.
Roam the fields of daisies.
Fly to the top of the mountains.

With closed eyes, I see you among the flowers,
High above the clouds.

Your presence blows through me with the breeze.
Your smile beams down on through the sun.
The full moon brings the light of your laughter to my mind.

 

                                               And the Butterfly in all its splendor reminds me
                                                               of your beauty and freedom now.
                                                Leaving your love for me lingering in my world.

 

There's a reason you're missed so much. And that reason has a lot to do with the smiles you brought to our faces all the time. You are some kind of wonderful for still being able to make everyone smile at just the mention of your name.

Not a day goes by that you aren't thought of and missed by many. But on this day, I like to remember how lucky we all are to have been impacted by someone so extraordinary in the first place. So on your birthday, I'm thankful for you being brought into this world 26 years ago, and celebrate that infectious smiling spirit of yours that I'm grateful for having known so well.

Happy Birthday Darka Darka xo

My darling son today is your birthday & I miss you so very much. I don't know why you are gone, I don't know what happened, why you.........  I only know you are with GOD & the angels.   We all love & miss you so very much darling son. Until we meet again, fly high & free!!  We love & miss you!!

Our handsome son today is your 26st birthday & we can't share it with you.  I can remember the pain & the hours spent to bring you into this world.  That pain does not begin to touch the pain in my heart today as I miss you & think of what we are all missing since your death.  Why??  You deserved so much more. I wish I had said I Love You another time, said I miss you one more time, & I am proud of you just one more time,  "If I had only known, " as the song says I would have done & said so many things. We miss you so very much. Until we meet again.  
        We love you, Mom & Dad

"How can I begin to say how much you are missed our handsome son?  You are there surrounded by beauty and love from so many.  I don't know how long it will be until I see you again, I pray it isn't long. I haven't been the same nor will I since you've gone.  I love you!!!!"