Darko Durbic

My Son Lives in Paradise

The dust has settled on the things

That I have stored away

A favorite toy, for little boy

A jar of dried out clay.

A photograph when you were young

Sits quietly on the shelf

Thoughts of you come drifting back

I just can't help myself.

A drawing that you made for me

When you were very small

Is framed within this heart of mine

And hangs upon the wall.

 A scrapbook lies within the room

Where you once laid your head

Your favorite book, a model car

The pillow on your bed.

I miss you coming home from school

"Hey mom, "it's me, I'm home"

I miss the little words and hugs

The special times we've know.

A part of me just disappeared

The day you went away

An empty space now fills my heart

There are no words to say.

A closet filled with memories

Of happy days gone by

A baseball cap and souvenir

Why did you have to die?

The trophies that you won at school

Stand proudly on display

Your many friends can't understand

Why God called you away.

I hear your voice within the halls

It echoes in the night

I see you in the evening mist

And in the morning light.

So many things you left behind

Are now a memory

But little arms that held me tight

Will always stay with me.

An empty space now fills my heart

My boy, my child, my son

You've gone into another world

Where golden dreams are spun.

I do not know the answers

It's not for me to know

But I will know the truth one day

Just why you had to go.

My turn will come to leave this world

I'll gaze into your eyes

God's perfect plan will be revealed

Up there in paradise

Author/Written by

Marilyn Ferguson

 

I'll no more keep your pain alive,
I won't try to hold you down.
I'll let you fly on to higher ground.

My grief has left a numbness,
as if this isn't real
You are in my heart forever,
but I know I have to let you free.

Soar high.
Laugh as a child that feels the joy of the moment. 
 
Play among the rivers flowing through the hills.
Roam the fields of daisies.
Fly to the top of the mountains.

With closed eyes, I see you among the flowers,
High above the clouds.

Your presence blows through me with the breeze.
Your smile beams down on through the sun.
The full moon brings the light of your laughter to my mind.

My darling son today is your birthday & I miss you so very much. I don't know why you are gone, I don't know what happened, why you.........  I only know you are with GOD & the angels.   We all love & miss you so very much darling son. Until we meet again, fly high & free!!  We love & miss you!!

Our handsome son today is your 26st birthday & we can't share it with you.  I can remember the pain & the hours spent to bring you into this world.  That pain does not begin to touch the pain in my heart today as I miss you & think of what we are all missing since your death.  Why??  You deserved so much more. I wish I had said I Love You another time, said I miss you one more time, & I am proud of you just one more time,  "If I had only known, " as the song says I would have done & said so many things. We miss you so very much. Until we meet again.  
        We love you, Mom & Dad

"How can I begin to say how much you are missed our handsome son?  You are there surrounded by beauty and love from so many.  I don't know how long it will be until I see you again, I pray it isn't long. I haven't been the same nor will I since you've gone.  I love you!!!!"