Darko Durbic

It would be very difficult to pinpoint one memory of Darko that I think of as my favorite; but there is definitely one that stands out in my mind because of its hilarity and difficulty to explain to anyone who wasn't there. Darko and Marc convinced me to come out for an early dinner to Swiss Chalet and it turned out to be the funniest meal that we have all ever had. It would be impossible for me to explain what went on, any time we have tried to tell other people how funny it was only gets us blank expressions. But I know that I have never laughed as hard as I did during that meal, and I know that Darko and Marc remember it the same way.

                

                                 

          

 

                     

 

AS I LIE IN BED TONIGHT, DEAR LORD, I HOPE YOU HEAR THESE PRAYERS OF MINE. FOR I'VE ASKED FOR YOUR HELP SO MUCH, AND FELT FORSAKEN EVERY TIME. I ASKED YOU FOR THE STRENGTH TO HELP ME MAKE IT THROUGH EACH DAY... I ASKED YOU TO KINDLY GUIDE ME AS I TREAD UPON MY WAY. I ASKED YOU FOR YOUR MERCY FOR CALLING MY CHILD BACK HOME WITH YOU... NONE OF THESE THINGS I'VE ASKED FOR IS MORE THAN YOU CAN DO. FOR I KNOW THAT YOU CAN DO ANYTHING, YOU ONCE MADE THE BLIND TO SEE. SO WILL YOU, DEAR LORD, PLEASE DO THESE THINGS FOR ME? I NEVER MEANT TO EVER TAKE A SINGLE DAY YOU GAVE FOR GRANTED, THE SEED YOU SOWED INSIDE OF ME IS NOW FOREVER PLANTED. FOR YOU SENT TO ME AN ANGEL, PLANTED ON THIS EARTH TO BLOOM WITH YOU. I THANK YOU, LORD FOR ALLOWING ME TO SOMEHOW MAKE IT THROUGH. ALL THE TIMES I THOUGHT YOU HAD FORSAKEN ME, YOU WERE REALLY WITH ME ALL THE TIME... IT WAS ME WHO SLIPPED AWAY FROM YOU SEEKING PEACE OF MIND. NOW I KNOW THAT NOTHING HAS, OR NOR WILL IT EVER BE, POSSIBLE WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE FOR I NEED YOU HERE WITH ME. I THANK YOU LORD ONCE AGAIN FOR A LOVE LIKE NO OTHER... YOU SENT TO ME AN ANGEL AND PROUDLY CALLED ME His MOTHER!

                                                           

                                                          

My Child 

 With my silence - I remember you,
 
          With my laughter - I rejoice with you,
 
With my tears - I grieve for you,
 
                  With my entire heart, mind, body, and soul-

           I long for you.

 

                                                      With my eyes - I see you,
 
                                                     With my mind - I think of you,
 
                                                             With my heart - I love you,
 
                                                    With my arms - I reach for you,
 
                                                        With my feet - I walk with you,
 
                                                       With my voice - I talk with you,

Dear son, missing you for family get together.

                     

Hey my baby, you know that today is special day for your brother, but my heart is with you more and more. I know you are today with us and we are always with you. Love you Darko.

 

                           

Hi Baby, I miss you more and more. Life is changed forever. Love you soo much.

 

                                           

Dear Milena,

Thank you for the condolence on my son Denis' site. It was very much appreciated. Our sons were the same age, and died almost the same time. Reading your stories about him and your feelings, it could be me writing. My feelings are the EXACT same as yours. This isn't getting easier, its getting worse!

Denis' birthday is Monday, Sept. 28th. The second one without him. Dreading it....I think of him every minute of every day. I see his face constantly and little pieces of his life go through my mind like i'm watching a movie. I wonder what he would be doing at this time if he were still here. I can't stand the thought of never seeing him again.  Please send me an email if you would like to talk, I'd like to know what happened to your handsome son and I can tell you what happened to  Denis. Take Care,

Maureen Mulkern

email=mmulkern321@yahoo.com

Hope to hear from you.

                                                     

My Mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it told.

But I can hear her crying, when all others are in bed.

I watch her lie awake at night, and go to hold her hand.

She doesn't know I'm with her, to help her understand.

But like the sands upon the beach, that never wash away.....

I watch over my surviving Mom, who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others....

a smile of disguise

But through heavens open door, I see tears flowing from her eyes.

My Mom tries to cope with my death, to keep my memory alive.

But anyone who knows her, knows its her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving Mom, through heavens' open door

I try to tell her angels protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her, or ease the burden she bears

So if you get a chance, talk to her...

And show her that you care.

For no matter what she says,

No matter what she feels

My surviving Mom has a broken heart,

That time won't ever heal.

 

 

        

         

My Life without YOU! - They told me it would get easier everyday! they lied! It gets a little harder everyday, the days and nights are so much longer, every task is so much harder to complete. Knowing I will never hold you, hug you, kiss you, hear you. I am lost and incomplete, I ask God for the strength, and I can't find it. I try, to keep myself together but I easily fall apart. I pray that comfort that only the Holy spirit can give me. My life without you! - from ~Mom~

Well, it is one year, and believe it or not I am having a harder time now. I never saw this coming. As it is turning into a new year it just hit me that the entire year will go by and I will not have even one opportunity to make the smallest of memories with my son. He is gone. I feel even more alone now then I did before, and I did not believe that is possible. My entire being is saturated and overflowing with just sadness. So many dreams, hopes and prayers...gone...just gone. All I have now are tears. A tear for every time I turn around I see my son's face, as clear as day. I see him everywhere I go. I hear him in the wind or in a crowd all the time. But then I realize it is not him, and I am alone again, empty and looking for a way to keep going. It is so hard. I know I have other son still here, and I am reminded of that from others as well, but I honestly just don't know if I will be able to make it through this storm. Every day seems darker and darker. Does it ever get better? Does the sun ever shine again? Will there always be a shadow where my son should be instead?

     You will live on, in our memories, hearts and prayers...forevermore.

      Not a day will go by, without a tear, somewhere...being shed!

      Our dearest Darko, one comfort is in knowing, we will see You again one day...

      So Jesus if you are listening in your home from up above,

      Would you kiss our darling son and give him all our love.