Darko Durbic

        

         

My Life without YOU! - They told me it would get easier everyday! they lied! It gets a little harder everyday, the days and nights are so much longer, every task is so much harder to complete. Knowing I will never hold you, hug you, kiss you, hear you. I am lost and incomplete, I ask God for the strength, and I can't find it. I try, to keep myself together but I easily fall apart. I pray that comfort that only the Holy spirit can give me. My life without you! - from ~Mom~

Well, it is one year, and believe it or not I am having a harder time now. I never saw this coming. As it is turning into a new year it just hit me that the entire year will go by and I will not have even one opportunity to make the smallest of memories with my son. He is gone. I feel even more alone now then I did before, and I did not believe that is possible. My entire being is saturated and overflowing with just sadness. So many dreams, hopes and prayers...gone...just gone. All I have now are tears. A tear for every time I turn around I see my son's face, as clear as day. I see him everywhere I go. I hear him in the wind or in a crowd all the time. But then I realize it is not him, and I am alone again, empty and looking for a way to keep going. It is so hard. I know I have other son still here, and I am reminded of that from others as well, but I honestly just don't know if I will be able to make it through this storm. Every day seems darker and darker. Does it ever get better? Does the sun ever shine again? Will there always be a shadow where my son should be instead?

     You will live on, in our memories, hearts and prayers...forevermore.

      Not a day will go by, without a tear, somewhere...being shed!

      Our dearest Darko, one comfort is in knowing, we will see You again one day...

      So Jesus if you are listening in your home from up above,

      Would you kiss our darling son and give him all our love.

                                    

                                                        

It's amazing how many lives you touched in such a positive way.  Please know that I am proud of you and will do all that I can to keep your legacy alive.  Nothing can bring you back to us but we are trying to push forward so that we may see you again in Heaven.  I pray everyday for God to give me strength to carry on as you would want me to do.  I had 20 wonderful years with you but it just wasn't enough.  The hole in my heart will never be filled.  I miss you more than words can say.

 

 

Welcome to Darko’s memorial site. I have created this site not just for myself, but for all of those that my beautiful son touched. He had such a way about him that even if you only knew him for a short while, he left his heart prints on your soul. I aspire to be more and more like my son everyday. Darko never took life for granted, he always looked for the silver lining, and he never let his illness get the best of him. I am so proud of him and in awe of him all at the same time. But what I am the most is sad, lonely and empty. I miss my son. I miss the beautiful shining light he was to my world.

May you all enjoy sharing your grief, your memories and your hilarious stories about Darko. He is definitely missed. I love hearing all of the "Darko’s stories". They may be a little painful now, but as time passes I know I will cherish every one of them and hang on to them dearly.

I love you all.

Milena, Darko’s Mom

 

 

 

 

Hi my sweetheart, we should go on Friday to Laurier University to recive your diploma, to see all your friends. My son I miss you every day more and more, words can not describe how I feel. Please keep sending me signs, to ease my pain. Love you my angel

                     

 

 

First Mothers Day In Heaven

 

 

May 2009

A Mother's Prayer

Lord, today is Mother's Day, but My hearts are split in two.

Half is with the child still here,

The other with the child that is there with You.

All the lovely presents are a nice surprise,

But the one thing I want most is missing,

and tears fill my eyes.

I know when you sent him, Lord,

You didn't promise how long he would stay.

All You said was to love him and treasure each and every day.

But Lord, it crushed my heart when you called for his return.

I feel like half a Mom, as I ache, weep and yearn.

But Lord, tell him I love him just as much as I did before.

And could You please make a window,

so he can see through heaven's door ?

Let him see that he is missed and thought of with each breath.

And that Mother's love begins before life, and does not end with death.

So, on this Mother's Day, the Greatest Gift, I give to You.

For Lord, I know you missed him and You loved him, too.

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I'll never forget our 4 years of High School together, we became friends easily.
We had a lot in common with music and always joked about the most random things together. He had this laugh where it would cause a chain of laughter, one person would laugh at his laugh, he'd laugh at their laugh, and another person would laugh at both of them laughing, utter chaos!
All the parties, camping, backyard gatherings, and random nights in the parking lots playing hacky sack, those are the memories I'll always cherish with me forever.

I love you and miss you Darko Durbic.