Darko Durbic

Only a few days until Christmas and all I do miss you my angel. I pretend to be doing ok around friends and family but I'm just here. I sure miss you Darko. Love you, mom

8 years 3 month and 14 days without my son Darko. November leavs me breathless becouse it is the month he was born - November 14.1987. I am thankfull for the 20 years I was honored to be his mom. I love you son and will allways miss you and honor you. My heart is forever broken, I am a shadow of what once I use to be. We will meet in eternaty.
Tomorrow I will be by your grave my dear Darko and I'll try to remmember all our happy days, and your short life here on earth, happy birthday my love. Love you mom...

Come to me in my dreams so I can see you smile.
Take me back to yesterday even if only for a while...
Miss you Darko

I never pictured my life this way. With my son’s 8 years angelvarsary coming  I feel like I haven’t taken a whole breath since he took his last one. I’m still straggling.

My calendars aren’t marked by birthdays and anniversaries anymore. Those happy days are long gone. I have 2 days out of a whole year that mean anything at all to me. November 14, a day that use to be a celebration, the day Darko was born. Now the only significance it holds is a reminder that he will be 20 forever. It’s just a sad day to sit on his grave and grieve for what could have been. Then there’s July 31th, a day that needs no calendar to mark- it’s forever embedded in my mind. The day my soul was ripped from my body and the life was sucked out of me. The day my family fell apart and a day that I will live for the remainder of my entirety here on this earth. The day Darko died. 

See, when you lose a child, those 2 days are what a 12 month calendar consist of. We just survive everyone in between. I mean, how can you move forward when so much of you is missing? 

I just wish I could tell my heart what my mind already knows. But sometimes, I still can’t believe he’s really gone. 

Most days  I feel the world is moving on without me. No matter how much time passes, it’s like I’m still in hospital with Darko praying for his recovery, I had so much to say to him, but so little time. I just kept telling him over and over again how sorry I was, how much I love him, and how we would be together again soon. 

Each day I wish to wake ….. and finally be with him

Remember you with love.

Dear Darko,
I am sending my love to you and your mom and I am so sorry for you gone too soon.
I have no words to say my feelings just one simple word I am sorry.
Rest in peace beautiful boy.We love you and hold you in our hearts.
With love Donna Radesmom gone to heaven 11-14-1997.

MORE THAN A DREAM

You visited me while I was sleeping.
You held my hand
as we drifted among the stars
whispering ''come with me mom,
I'll show you where I'm living now.''

...

Laughing together we floated
in and out of places
that were snatched from me
as soon as I awoke.

Remembering that
I had visited somewhere
beautiful with you
and you were happy.

My world can never be the same without you in it. How can I move on without your presence here with me? You blessed my life with your life. My love for you is eternal and I will miss you forever.

I will stop missing you – when I am with you.

Today we will celebreting your life. Golf your favorite. Thanks to your friends for organize this event, and you for always giving us good weather. Love you Darko..........

It was long time since Darko is gone, but for me he is forever in my heart and never forgotten until I come to him.

Love you and miss you my dear child words can’t say RIP my angel  your mom