Darko Durbic

I Hear Each Tear Fall On Her Face

My Mom doesn't know I'm watching her

but I'm watching her just the same.

And I hear each tear fall on her face

at the very mention of my name.

She says it sounds like music to her ears

and can be heard over a crowd.

Oh, I hear each tear fall on her face

when my name is said aloud.

I watch her stumble through each day

as she wishes the day would end.

And I hear each tear fall on her face

as she talks of me to her friends.

But there are few who truly understand.

Oh this I've heard her proclaim.

And I hear each tear fall on her face.

Will my Mom ever be the same?

I know that her smiles light up a sky.

But I don't see that smile today.

Oh, but I hear each tear fall on her face.

Her blue skies have turned to gray.

Oh I send to her my warmest hug

with the rays of the morning sun.

Then, I won't hear a tear fall on her face.

For I shall erase them one by one.

Yes, my Mom doesn't know I'm watching her.

But I'm watching her just the same.

And if I hear a tear fall on her face

I'll just softly whisper her name!

I Believe

Every now and then, soft as breath upon my skin,
I feel you come back again,
And it’s like you haven’t been gone a moment from my side ~
Like the tears were never cried,
Like the hands of time are holding you and me,
And with all my heart I’m sure we’re closer than we ever were
I don’t have to hear or see you ~ I’ve got all the proof I need ~
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, oh I believe

Now when you die your life goes on ~
It doesn’t end here when you’re gone
It never ends, and if I’m right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, oh I believe

The Angelic Butterfly

by Kind Angel

I found safety in my cocoon for many years,
sheltered from the hurts life threw my way.
I've been growing,
    one day at a time,
to become the beautiful, angelic creature
I'm meant to be within the haven of the cocoon.

Then one day, with lots of hard work and determination,
the cocoon cracked and the Angelic Butterfly emerged
stronger than ever before.
As the wings slowly unfurl, so many dreams,
long forgotten, are beginning to be realized.

As the comfortable fear melts, and feelings are felt,
the wings are fully expanding to reveal the true beauty.

As the butterfly's beginning to take flight and
soar to new heights once thought impossible.
With the help of God, and the Angels,
the only way for this butterfly to go
    (as all butterflies go)
    is up, up, up!
Look out world,
the Angelic Butterfly has arrived!

 Butterfly's Wings

You let me hear the heartbeat of life,
a sound of your gentle breath.
A life-giving rhythm,
wrapped in the most gentle touch.
A word

from the mouth of a friend.

It takes nothing more
than the wind from a butterfly's wing
to push me over the edge.
There take nothing more
than a quiet love
to show me the land of heaven.

Fly me up,
in your heavenly land,
show me your golden gates
Take me to joy, and happiness,
and find me my quiet place.
Let me sing out my sorrow,
and praise you with joy,
let me feel all I ever have felt.
Take my hand and guide me,
to wonderland,
where your magic can
bring me to life.

Hello My Yellow Butterfly

Another difficult day in August. A very hard month babe, how we all love and miss you my sweetest, loveliest, most handsome son in the world. To think that two years and 5 months ago our life was so beautiful and normal, and now it can never ever to be that way again. That is what makes it hard to carry on, to know that you are not coming back home and we can never be normal again. Am really trying to keep it all together but am tired son of trying to be strong, to put a smile on my face and carry on like everything is okay, when it isn’t. I don’t want this weight on my shoulder anymore. I never ever expected this, did not expect that pain like this could exist and that we would be tortured to have to live through it. Our life was not supposed to turn out like this, just cannot believe it my sweet baby.

You would have heard my discussions with …….. today. I really don’t know what to make of the whole situation. How is it possible? How one day you are perfectly healthy and the next week they tell me I am going to lose you?

Hear today from someone’s how they son survived …. Just don’t get it baby. Why does God help some and not others? How does God choose? Does he love some more than others? Why did God not help? Is it because that I was not so so holy did not go to church often, not enough devotion ……….. Why did he take you? Why did God give us so much of hope only to let us down? So so many why’s with no answers and absolutely nobody can help with this paralyzing pain. Wish so bad that I went with you that night. Cannot believe I have survived all this time ……. does one call…… this surviving?

I miss you my most handsome son, my best friend, my life. I miss your sweet smile, your gentleness, your laughter, you talking to me, telling me what to do ……. you walking out of the bathroom after getting dressed and asking ‘do I look o.k. Mum’ ……….. you did not realize it my Darko but you always looked perfect. You are my perfect Son there will never ever be another like you my baby.

I will always treasure the time we had, can’t help to want more but ………….

Hope you are safe and happy. Hope what I am reading and learning is true.  Hoping that I am on the right path. Thank you for your lovely sign last night , you truly are amazing, I really needed that babyson.

My Mom She Tells A Lot Of Lies
She never did before. From now until the day she dies.
She'll tell a whole lot more.
She used to tell the truth But now it doesn't matter.
I died and went to heaven Her life is all a-shatter.
Ask my Mom how is she. She'll say "Yes I'm fine!"
She wants to beg "Please help me. I can't find that girl of mine!"
Ask my Mom how is she She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth then tell me Why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mom how is she She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see Nor the strength to yell.
You think you know the feeling But this cannot be.
For even though you loved me You didn't love as much as she.
She will smile and tell you "It's o.k. God has a plan."
But she will turn away and cry 'Cause she just can't understand.
Tell a joke and she will laugh But she is not o.k.
She wants to share the joke with me But it will not be today.
I watch from here in Heaven. Her distress disturbs my peace.
Will someone please take care of her And thus take care of me?
"Some day you will feel better. "Yes I will." she lies.
She knows this will not happen Until the day she dies.
"I was so lucky! I had her all those years!"
(They passed in a minute I shed so many tears.)
Ask my Mom how is she She'll say "Thank you. Good."
She cannot tell you how she feels. Oh how I wish she could.
Ask my Mom how is she "I'm fine I'm well I'm coping."
For God's sake Mom just tell the truth Just say your heart is broken.
Ask my Mom how is she "I'm well I'm good. And you?"
I'll shake my head in Heaven. It simply isn't true.
She'll love me all her life. I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask how is she She'll lie and say she's fine.
Her carnival is over. She's stepped off the carousel.
But to save you feeling badly She'll say "Thanks all is well."
My Mom she's not gone mad yet. But oh so very nearly.
Don't ask my Mom how is she Ask how is she really.
I am here in Heaven. I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen. Hug her hold her near.
On the day we meet again We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say "You're lucky to get in here Mom
With all the lies you told!"

My beautiful boy I miss you so much especially today because its two years today that I lost you the pain is always there a part of me is gone forever. I try to stay strong and know your're in a better place, sometimes I just feel like giving up but I always remember your words"the key to life is to have courage and never lose your faith" the words of my beautiful boy its like somehow you knew and you were leaving us all a message so I repeat those words in my head over and over when I'm feeling weak. I was so proud to call you my son, you bought joy to everyone you knew, you touched everyone heart in such a special way, you had a way of always making everyone feel good about themselves. I miss your unique personality you always had a funny one liner to make everyone laugh especially when we were having a bad day and you are so beautiful your adorable face your gorgeous eyes those long eyelashes your adorable smile your soft skin I always called you my baby boy even when you were twenty because you were my baby and you still are and although I don't understand why God needed to take you to Heaven when you still had so much life to live. I'm sure its because God needed another special angel and you're still doing special things for us from heaven. Maybe you were an angel sent here just for a short time to help us here on earth and that's why you were such a special unique person. I love you my boy so much I think about you the minute I wake up till the time I go to sleep. You will always hold a very special place in my heart  until we meet again may God keep you in the palm of his hand.   Mom

Hey angel 2 years it doesn't even seem real its just way to long that you haven't been with us everybody misses you more than ever I love you

What Makes A Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here

He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you

So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start