Darko, for your Mom ....... When you wonder the meaning of life and love know that I am with you. Close your eyes and feel me kissing you In the gentle breeze across your cheek.When you begin to doubt that you shall ever see me again, Quiet your mind and hear me. I am in the whisper of the heavens Speaking of your love.When you lose your idenity, When you question who you are, and where you are going, Open your heart and see me.I am the twinkle in the stars smiling down upon you, Lighting the path for your journey.When you awaken each morning not remembering your dreams, But feeling content and serene Know that I am with you Filling your nights with thoughts of me.When you linger in the remnant pain, Wholeness seeming so unfamiliar, Think of me. Know that I am with you Touching you through shared tears of a gentle friend Easing the pain .As the sunrise illuminates the desert sky In that breathtaking brilliance, awaken your spirit.Think of our time together, all too brief, but ever brilliant.When you are certain of us together, When you are certain of your destiny, Know that God created that moment in time, just for us.I am with you always, Mom
Came across this and I thought of you and so many others, hope you don't mind me sharing the poem with you ~ Yo
A Few After.....
A few minutes after his birth.....
I could hear his announcing scream.
I couldn't believe he was finally here,
The realization of my dream.
A few hours after his birth.....
I held him so close to my chest.
Somehow that little boy let me see,
A special love that never left.
A few days after his birth.....
I held his tiny little hand.
I told him there would be lots of things
That I would help him to understand.
A few weeks after his birth.....
He had that sparkle in his eyes,
And when he showed me that little smile,
I thought that I would surely die.
A few months after his birth.....
He was just beginning to learn.
He didn't like me to go away,
And he cried until I returned.
A few years after his birth......
I still couldn't believe he was mine.
We talked and laughed and went for walks.
We had so many special times..
A few after.....
A few minutes after his death.....
I didn't know I needed to scream.
I thought that he was still safe and here...
I didn't know the truth of my dream.
A few hours after his death.....
I felt a strangeness within my chest.
Something was wrong that I couldn't see.
God! I didn't know that he had left.
A few days after his death.....
I held his cold and lifeless hand.
There were just so very many things
That I could not fully understand.
A few weeks after his death.....
That sparkle stolen from my eyes,
No longer to see his beautiful smile.
I never, ever thought that he would die.
A few months after his death.....
There was so much I needed to learn.
I was confused when he went away,
And I still waited for his return.
A few years after his death.....
I still wish that he could be mine,
To talk and laugh and go for walks.
I miss those special moments in time.
A few after.....
A few minutes after MY death......
Once again I will hear him scream,
"Hey Mom, it's me, I'm over here,
And Mom, this time it's not a dream."
A few hours after MY death.......
I'll hold him close again to my chest.
He'll look at me and say... "Now see?",
It doesn't seem so long since I left."
A few days after MY death.....
He will gently take me by the hand,
And show me all the glorious things,
And help me to understand.
A few weeks after MY death.....
I'll see that sparkle in his eyes.
Once again he'll warm me with his smile,
And say... "You see, Mom, I didn't die".
A few months after MY death.......
Together we'll have so much to learn.
We'll never have to go away,
Or long for each other's return.
A few years after MY death.....
Forever he will always be mine.
We'll talk and laugh and go for long walks,
Because we'll have nothing...... but time.
~ by Christine Ross